Intuitions...

I keep on saying that my intuitions come out true....many people laugh out...but deep inside i know there is something that sends me signals, that helps me decide, that is true to my conscience. A recent happening has reaffirmed my belief. When i was coming from calcutta hoping that it would be the last time i would see Howrah Bridge in front of my eyes, deep inside of me i had this intuition that somehow i would be brought back to this city, otherwise the farewell would not have been this meagre. Something told me that there is some unfinished task in the city, some unravelled mystery, some hidden journey that i had yet to embark upon. I wanted not to go back to the city because i have not had many good memories attached with it, but i knew that the more i despise the city the more i will be drawn towards it. And as it appears now, i shall have to stay for quite some time in the city of joy - Kolkata as my posting location at Wipro has been fixed as Kolkata. I may not think all the time the reason behind this, but i know that there is sure something that has kept me attached to the city. Well, my future will tell what and i am ready to face it.

Feelings given life....by a Song!!!

What i always felt, what i longed to put in words, what i was always thinking....has been beautifully put into words by Linkin Park's song "Easier to Run". The part i am talking about goes like:

Something has been taken from deep inside of me,
A secret I've kept locked away,
No one could ever see,
Wounds so deep they never show,
They never go away,
Like moving pictures in my head,
For years and years they've played.

If I could change i would,
Take back the pain I would,
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would,
If I could stand up and take the blame I would,
I would take all the shame to the grave.

Sometimes I remember,
The darkness of my past,
Brinking back these memories,
I wish I didn't have,
Sometimes I think of letting go,
And never looking back,
And never moving forward so,
There would never be a past.

Just washing it aside,
All of the helplessness inside,
Pretending I don't feel misplaced,
It's so much simpler than change.

It's easier to run!!!
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Then face all this pain here all alone.....

When i heard this song for the first time, i was shocked to discover the words i was searching for. Thereafter, this song has become one of my favourites.

A rare thought...

They say some people are essential for survival, some feelings are necessary to exist, some memories are meant to be cherished. But i question them, i provide the basis of SELF, of EGO, and of WORLDLINESS.

The long surviving notions of friendship, innocence and love are losing out on their meaning these days when people prefer to sacrifice them to satisfy their selfish interests. I was shocked when i faced this new world, but after some time i realized that its not the fault of the people who live in it, who have been moulded according to the new parameters of success, according to the new redefined standards. It is rather the fault of the ones who have the knack to observe the wrong, the ones who have the astute to differentiate between the prevalant and the good, these ones who have got discreet powers but still not do anything to make the others aware of their ignorance, of their blindness, of their good.

On first thought, one decrypts the idea as one of new revolution, of something very demanding, of something too difficult for them to pursue with their normal lives, but if they give things a second thought, they would realize that what is needed is spreading of good-will, awareness about happiness, and teaching of friendship. People are by birth innocent and pure and retaining it is difficult, not impossible. The ones who maintain the same virtues are the ones who feel suffocated when they observe the others changed with time. These are the ones who need to work on the existing standards, change them wherever possible and provide people opportunities to revive their pure selves, to never give them a chance to say that they had to do it because thats the way it is.

I would stop questioning the people once there is enough awareness, enough purity, enough innocence, enough frienship, enough love.