Of Beliefs, Opinions and Characters....
Well, today i made one of the most shocking discoveries of my life. May be the year 2005 is meant for me to experience all kinds of unexpected behaviors from people whom i was looking upto for some reason or the other. The year started with something that proved out to be the biggest mistake of my life, and i thought i had learnt, but heck, that was not enough.
It so happens that the person whom i was looking upto at workplace, who according to me was the most dedicated, sincere and pure person, proved out to be something else. Well, i could have easily overlooked the story and sticked to my opinion, but there was a certain folly in the air, there was this inexplicable hint that supported the new unearthed line of thinking. I was shocked for a while, gaping into thin air, until the person who brought that piece of shock to me said "Rohit, remember that people are not always like what they appear at the outside". For her, it was a statement, but for me, it was all belief, analysis and understanding gone wrong. Every assumption trashed, all the feelings wasted, all the emotions dried.
For a moment i was cursing myself, until my room-mate brought me back by saying "how u know whether this is true? And why do u let such things affect you". I had the answer, had it close to my heart, near to my soul. I had always analyzed people and always categorized them as good or bad. Not that i wanted to, but my whole sensory self would urge me to categorize and trust, or discard. Looking back, this is what i had been doing all my life. I regret for it now, i regret for it after all this, but i wonder if there is any fault of mine. I wonder if i should stop doing it. I wonder if that would be a solution to my problems. I wonder if it would really give me piece. I wonder, i belive, i form opinions, analyze characters. Am i wrong?
It so happens that the person whom i was looking upto at workplace, who according to me was the most dedicated, sincere and pure person, proved out to be something else. Well, i could have easily overlooked the story and sticked to my opinion, but there was a certain folly in the air, there was this inexplicable hint that supported the new unearthed line of thinking. I was shocked for a while, gaping into thin air, until the person who brought that piece of shock to me said "Rohit, remember that people are not always like what they appear at the outside". For her, it was a statement, but for me, it was all belief, analysis and understanding gone wrong. Every assumption trashed, all the feelings wasted, all the emotions dried.
For a moment i was cursing myself, until my room-mate brought me back by saying "how u know whether this is true? And why do u let such things affect you". I had the answer, had it close to my heart, near to my soul. I had always analyzed people and always categorized them as good or bad. Not that i wanted to, but my whole sensory self would urge me to categorize and trust, or discard. Looking back, this is what i had been doing all my life. I regret for it now, i regret for it after all this, but i wonder if there is any fault of mine. I wonder if i should stop doing it. I wonder if that would be a solution to my problems. I wonder if it would really give me piece. I wonder, i belive, i form opinions, analyze characters. Am i wrong?
posted by Rohit Mahajan at
1:30 PM
3 Comments:
Rohit, All i have to say is that You Better Stop this Conscious Analytic Program That you run down on most of the people you come across.. Trust me and I think even you would know unconsciously We are all aware of the Descisions we make n Deep in our Hearts We Know What Feels Right and What Doesnt.
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Brinder, at 10:00 AM
Never judge people is all i will say to u....
i agree, its natural to judge and analyse.. and then categorise. But ask yourself, are u really worth analysing anyone ?? Are u actually worth judging urself? i say, no.
Don't judge anyone... not even urself. Tht will change ur life. It works...
try it..
:)
And remember, to do good. to help, to reach out to the needy...
Don't try to do anything else.
Rini
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Rini Abraham, at 8:55 PM
Yup dude!
Guess what...when you have such a saga of emotions, you are bound to be happy some times and sad some times.
Why are you complicating things. After all every analysis comes with a cost and an outcome. You may say you are improving your thought process, discretion and judgement.
But then, unless you touch the base, you would always be the Alice running down the spiral.
Not mocking at you.But I thought it was high time I left a comment.I guess you really need to heed to some advice now! Esp from me
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fasttrack_ravi, at 11:52 AM
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